{"id":6683,"date":"2023-10-25T00:13:59","date_gmt":"2023-10-25T00:13:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/reasonstolivefor.com\/?p=6683"},"modified":"2023-10-27T21:54:07","modified_gmt":"2023-10-27T21:54:07","slug":"travel-to-usa-day-33-of-sadness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/reasonstolivefor.com\/travel-to-usa-day-33-of-sadness\/","title":{"rendered":"Travel to USA – Day 33 of sadness"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
It’s day 33 of depressive episode # 4 where I talk about my travel to USA and the current state of my mental health. By now it’s a fun game where I am guessing how long it takes before I feel any better or resume my “normal” life. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Just to revisit, here is how long each episode has took before the darkness faded away: Almost all days are meaningless. Waking up to ‘what am I doing here?’. There are only questions and not a lot of answers. I feel not quite at home even when I am with my immediate family, ever since I immigrated, I don’t even know what’s home anymore. Everywhere I go is strange, my identity is lost. Some days I feel like there is some fight left in me, other days seem like this is the absolute end of me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n That’s enough of how I am currently feeling, now let me delve into how’s the day to day looking like for now. Since I have all the free time in the world right now, I decided to visit New Jersey, USA to meet my brother and parents. I took the Greyhound <\/a>bus (cuz cost effective) and it took me about 12 hours from Toronto Union Station to Newark Bus Station (all stops below).<\/p>\n\n\n\n Being my cautious self I was there at Toronto Union Station by 12 pm – about one and a half hour before the bus was expected to arrive. The wait was boring of course, just 10 minutes before the screen is updated with the gate number where the bus is expected to arrive. I headed to the gate where they checked my ticket and passport and helped me get my luggage on the bus. <\/p>\n\n\n
#1:<\/strong> 4 months
#2: <\/strong>8 months
#3: <\/strong>6 months
#4: <\/strong>unknown<\/p>\n\n\n\n